the one thing i miss is in your eyes

i get lonely, but not that lonely.


things i would say if i wasn't ignoring you --
i am not going to come crawling back. i learned from the mistake i made and i am happier and stronger now. i  don't need you, i need someone mature enough and whole enough to complete me, not take from me again. i listened to parting gift over a hundred times last year. that is not okay. that spark is not there anymore. you could've had me then, but you chose not to. so now i am not choosing you. it's been over a year and i don't want you anymore. seeing you, on the rare occasion that i do, is still a stab in the chest. it is not a feeling i want to relive. thank you for not talking to me that one time when we were in the same room standing five feet away from each other. i didn't want to talk to you, i only wanted you to see how happy and perfectly fine i was without you. i am without you. i don't know what you want or expect from this, but i am not going to give you anything. you don't deserve any parts of me. i already gathered back all the parts you took last time, and i will protect them better this time. protect them for when the right person comes along.

if i wasn't ignoring you, i have plenty of songs that would sum up how i feel. you are not welcome here and honestly i'd much rather do without you and your cocaine attitude. i've got to cut you out. i'm not sorry i met you, i'm not sorry it's over, i'm not sorry there's nothing to say. but i have grown too strong to ever fall back in your arms. i learned to live half-alive and now you want me one more time. cause you broke all your promises.