Les Gratitudes

I am thankful for all of the blessings I was given this year -- spending the summer in DC, the fall in Paris -- because they have truly made me a different person. My view of the world has widened. I am thankful for being given the chance to care about someone so ardently this year, even if nothing came of it. I am thankful for green tea with mint and scarves and Paris during Christmastime. I am thankful for the new friends I have made this year, and the new family I gained. I am thankful for the Lumineers. I am thankful for finally getting to meet the wonderful Christina Perri this year, however brief it was. I am thankful for getting to have a face-to-face conversation with Keltie Colleen, even if it was through a webchat on the internet. I am thankful for every single person in my life. I am thankful for finding my perfect little this year. I am thankful for summer days spent with my twinny, before we both left our homes.

Won't stop till it's over.

I feel like I have spent this entire year floundering and at a loss as to what to do next, and not really receiving much assistance from the universe. I have put so many questions out into the infinite abyss and asked for guidance countless times, and I feel like nothing has changed. I still haven't found the signs that should be in front of me. The only thing the universe has placed in front of me, is people that I can want desperately only to never get to wrap my hands around them and take what I want. I don't know what to do anymore. I am reduced to spending the rest of this year getting over yet another girl I couldn't have.