i am the sunlight drenching you

loves it when the universe works out perfectly, even if just for a night. i almost can't believe that it actually happened, that i got another perfect day. just because it's almost the end of our time together doesn't mean it's too late to make more beautiful memories. i sure haven't let go yet, and i don't think you have either.

it's a quarter after one i'm a little drunk and i need you now

perfect way to start a morning (minus how sucky i slept last night)

- gorgeous kc headshots

- amazing piano/cello instrumental version of love story+viva la vida

- new cperri adventure!

- rewatching my dorky trs dance video

- lady antebellum

- one week till i go home!

she wears high heels i wear sneakers

i wish my school was this awesome. i wish i could get a hug and kiss on the cheek from taylor swift. so proud of ryan and michael though!! they worked hard + earned it.


i think we should all thank the universe (i almost just typed the you-niverse) everytime we have a good day. or even if it isn't a good day, we should still give thanks for any and all of the small good things that happened that day, even if they seem insignificant. they may seem insignificant a lot of the time, but just think, your not-so-good day would be much worse without them. you worked hard to earn the good things life hands you, so take a moment to appreciate what you receive in return.

my good things today:
+ classes got done early so i had extra time to myself
+ deaver told me that he sees my mom in me, now that he saw her again
+ i got to blast the rocket summer in my room alone
+ free lunch! which for a poor person like me is the best thing over, because otherwise my lunch would've been three sourpatch kids and the end of my bunny grahams
+ got my last story turned in, so i'm finally done with that
+ broke my necklace waiting in line for aforementioned free lunch, and then alyssa fixed it for me right when i got back to work!
+ there is not a cloud in the sky
+ i am wearing my birthstone ring which i never wear
+ i am rocking my you tell me to live shirt (and it looks awesome with white shorts, if i may say so myself)
+ i am also rocking my mantra cuff

i don't want it anymore if it's not you that i gain

songs like this, and words like these --

If today is a day of forgiveness.
I forgive you.

make me want to choose love instead of silence, because the world doesn't need more anger and hate, but i can't help myself. i already tried, and it was useless. i waved my white flag a long time ago. i never wanted this in the first place.

"Try to say nothing negative about anybody-for three days-for forty-five days-for three months. See what happens to your life."

-yoko ono

i'm old enough to know that time doesn't move slow enough

tonight i was deprived of my oxygen. i made excuses trying to account for the loss. i told myself that i had to give it up for tay. i'd be okay with it if the universe would keep my samantha here, with me. but no matter how many excuses i made, it still hurt. i spent the entire hour and a half on the phone with my momma, but it still hurt.

i wish i was home tonight. now i have six voicemails from my sister to listen to on my phone

she has no problem with secrets

i finally found a song for my girl. the love of my life. the sunbeam that inspires me to be a better person and never stop flipping my curly blonde hair in the bathroom at night. the voice to the soundtrack of my life. the one i write fearless on my wrist for. the angel that saved my life.

she is the words that i can't find
i'll drown or make her mine

we all saw it coming

my new favorite song.