i'm old enough to know that time doesn't move slow enough

tonight i was deprived of my oxygen. i made excuses trying to account for the loss. i told myself that i had to give it up for tay. i'd be okay with it if the universe would keep my samantha here, with me. but no matter how many excuses i made, it still hurt. i spent the entire hour and a half on the phone with my momma, but it still hurt.

i wish i was home tonight. now i have six voicemails from my sister to listen to on my phone