falling from your mouth, tell me why

not knowing what's going to happen freaks me out. i'm scared of not getting what i want. of things not going the right way, or not going the way i planned. i like having plans and things to look forward to and dream about. i don't want that all taken away from me. the choice i had already made was taken from me and now i have to start all over again. except this time around i'm empty handed and no one's telling me the answer.