if i'm still alive what shouldn't i do

I should've known that after two Very Good days, the universe would make me pay for it with a Not So Good day. My problem is that I care too much, care more, and then I'm going to get hurt more when it all comes down to it. It's not fair, but it's the truth.

help i'm alive I'm feeling too much.

i'll just keep it to myself in the sun

i have a feeling this is going to be a good week. i can wear my new flowery skirt and have zooey's voice as the soundtrack to my life.

blind to the light

sometimes i pretend i can dance. there will probably be more of me fooling around like this over the summer when i have a month of the house of myself. hopefully i won't be completely horrible at ballet next year. hopefully it won't be awful on my joints like yoga is. why am i so breakable? i'm pretty sure my legs are a lot more shapely than this right now, thankfully.

anything less than "i love you" is lying

-- Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, Jonathan Safran Foer

i do honestly believe that there's a reason we're all standing where we are. you are right where you need to be in the universe, doing what you are meant to do. don't blink and let what is right pass you by. you may question it now, but in time you will see the reason why you had to do that thing or feel this particular moment.

falling from your mouth, tell me why

not knowing what's going to happen freaks me out. i'm scared of not getting what i want. of things not going the right way, or not going the way i planned. i like having plans and things to look forward to and dream about. i don't want that all taken away from me. the choice i had already made was taken from me and now i have to start all over again. except this time around i'm empty handed and no one's telling me the answer.

my personality type

Your Type is INFJ

Introverted	Intuitive	Feeling	Judging
67%	50%	75%	44%

you don't have to call anymore

i hate when you can feel someone pulling away & being apathetic before they're even gone. i want to grab her and yell, stop it, you're hurting me. i don't know if you're trying to protect yourself and prepare for the worst, for the end, but whatever you are doing is making me hurt now. i already know i'm going to hurt then. i'm trying to hold onto all the small moments and build up the memories while we still have time, and you don't care.