oh the world is in my heart

people change and i can be okay with that. i know who i am, and i will let myself know and accept whoever they choose to be. i wouldn't want anyone restricting me to be one thing if i didn't want to be that thing anymore. i will allow everyone else the same freedom to change and build themselves, because i would want the same courtesy for myself from others.

"this is a song about innocence lost"

what if what i want makes you sad?

song of the day --

the original version is grand and swelling, but i like it raw like this too. it makes colors flash and explode behind my eyelids.

one more time with feeling

i feel like having to say so many goodbyes and so often is slowly making little tiny holes in my heart each time and they are gradually accumulating. i'm still not used to it. it's like tearing a piece out of my chest and giving it to someone, and then holding onto the string, the thread connecting across the miles distance, with all my might. i hope i don't end up with an empty ribcage eventually. with nothing left for myself and fingers grasping at thin air.

she lifts her skirt up to her knees/ walks through the garden rows with her bare feet, laughing

songs of 2009, for a lonely girl like me.

parting gift : fiona apple

Sometimes the words were true for me, sometimes for someone else, and sometimes I just put it on repeat because I was hurting. This year won't be like that. I won't remember the sum of the days by such a crushing song.

welcome home : radical face

There aren't many words to describe this song. For such a cold song, it warmed my insides whenever I put it on loop and lost myself in it.

the battle with the heart isn't easily won

I don't believe in anything but myself.
I hope someone opens the door for me this year. That'd be nice. I have spent a long time opening my own doors, alone.