the psychology of life

I am a better person today than I was yesterday, and I will be a better person tomorrow than I am right now. Everything I learn today will be applied tomorrow. The limit doesn't matter. What matters is how you keep trying to be better than the person you were. Personal growth is always constant. You can always find a new way to challenge yourself. My strongest belief is tomorrow.

but i just haven't met you yet

I love Michael Bublé so fricking much. I could live inside his voice. Every Christmas, my family gives me a new cd of his; I am putting this one on my list for this year. Also, apparently today is his birthday? So there's that.

from the inside out you've changed, girl

have you ever had a song that was YOURS for the longest time, and then you forget about it for probably a year or more, and then find it again? it is the greatest feeling ever. this is my song. it used to be my ringtone and everything. i've still listened to ben kweller, just, through all the switching iPods and losing my iTunes library multiple times, i lost this particular song somewhere along the way. and just found it again, out of the blue.

I am only on my third listen of this record, but so far, I think I like Viva La Cobra better as a whole, for the way the songs fit together and all. This one still feels sort of scattered to me, but that's probably because I don't know the songs that well yet. We did have our first Hot Mess dance party yesterday, however.

I did, however, laugh at the line in the title track 'you go coco' when I noticed it. Nice Mean Girls reference, Gabriel.

a heartbreaker right from the start

Every step this girl dances inspires me to have hope and work hard and keep dreaming. She is so incredibly strong in this piece, I am so proud of her for winning.

pretending I know something about dance

I don't have very many words for this piece. Jeanine's legs are amazing, and I think Jason was one of the few guys soft enough to dance this dance with her and do it as beautifully as it deserves. Travis Wall is one of the few choreographers on the show who doesn't drive me nuts for one reason or another.

I love the moment in contemporary routines where the song finally hits its stride and all of a sudden the dancers are moving in unison and mirroring each other and reaching and I just feel that wrenching pull in the bottom of my gut.

you were better to me than ive been to myself

today i fell in love with this boy all over again. it's gotten to where i can't even explain myself anymore. if i could be half as genuine and selfless and kind-hearted as he is i would be blessed. he has given me faith and made me believe and i know that there are people out there who are just plain good.

i have grown to love people who are strong and beautiful despite their flaws. i used to love the broken boys who hurt my heart to love and watch self-destruct. it is much nicer feeling my heart swell with pride or happiness or love that knows no bounds. i want to be able to sing and dance and breath the air, instead of trying to sleep until it doesn't hurt anymore.