I still don't know what love means.

I love this girl so much. Being on break makes me miss her. If I go to Paris for a semester, I don't know what I'll do without her. Miss her every single day, probably.

if the right one came along --

in times like these, i just have to keep reminding myself that what is meant to happen, will happen. and timing is everything. i just have to be patient. i have been patient, for two whole semesters. because i have waited so long, my reward is going to be greater, in the end. i am already so blessed, and whatever comes next, it is going to be hard to top that. to top what i have now. because what i have now is perfect.



ps. i love this trend of us actually making time for each other. can we please continue it?

manifest wall

what will you do?

lie for a while with your ear against the earth

If I survive these next two weeks, it will be a miracle. A teary breakdown is pretty much inevitable at this point. I have no idea how I always manage to get everything done in time. Without sacrificing (too much) sleep. It just happens.

I know you're somewhere out there.

For once, I want to be someone else's number one. I am tired of putting my best friends first, and having all of them put their boyfriends first. I don't want to be the forgotten one anymore. I don't want to be silently, passive-aggressively angry anymore.

we might not make it home tonight.

having someone that tells me "i love you" and "goodnight" each night is the best thing ever.


sometimes i regret the way things happened or ended up, like wishing i joined ncm sooner or wishing sam hadn't left, but then i realize that if those things hadn't happened, i wouldn't be where i am now. if i had joined ncm a semester sooner, i wouldn't have spent it getting closer to sam and finding a best friend in her. and if i had joined sooner, i wouldn't have my big as my big. and if sam had stayed here, i might not have ever joined ncm, and then i wouldn't have gained this family. so now i have a family, and a best friend that i can visit in the most beautiful city, the city where my heart lives.

a summer playlist

a summer playlist.
a list of songs i fell in love with (or already was in love with) this summer.


1.  someone like you - adele
2.  poison & wine - the civil wars
3.  skinny love - birdy
4.  red light warning sign - atomic tom
5.  last kiss - taylor swift
6.  washed by the water - needtobreathe
7.  dryland - chris pureka
8.  if you don't wanna love me - james morrison
9.  the story - sara ramirez
10.  today is your day - shania twain
11.  run - matt nathanson
12.  skyscraper - demi lovato
13.  she's so high - tal bachman
14.  lights - ellie goulding
15.  this is war - 30 seconds to mars